Love is The Voice of Peace
Have you ever listened for the voice of God? Over the past few years I have been reading, praying and seeking to hear God’s voice but confusion set in and I began to doubt.
John 10 tells us that “His sheep know His voice…they will listen to My voice.” It bothered me that I didn’t know for sure what hearing ,“His voice,” really meant. It’s kind of like the phrase, “Seek His Face,” I do not think either one is talking about physical ears and eyes. I knew that when Jesus said,”Those who have ears to hear and eyes to see,” He was not speaking literally but in idioms.
Thankfully I believed the many promises saying, “when you search for Me with all our heart you will find Me,” Deuteronomy 4:28-30; Jeremiah 29:12-14. One of my favorites teachings on seeking God is found in Acts 17:27; “that they should seek God in the hope they might feel their way toward Him and find Him, yet He is not far from each one of us.” What an understatement! I envision myself searching for my sunglasses, the entire time they are sitting right on top of my head. His voice is not far, it is continually communicating with us.
Sometimes a word or a phrase would come to my mind and I would wonder if I had heard God speak. For months it seemed like I never had enough time to just sit and listen for the next profound thought. That is also when the confusion crept in, as I began to question and doubt, was that God? Was that me? Was that one of those “flaming arrows” from the enemy? As I devoted more time to sit in silence I began to recognize pretty clearly what was not God’s voice. Some pretty ugly stuff surfaced that I thought was dead and buried.
I found myself doubting God’s love for me. My thoughts were loud and clear, who was I to think God would hear my prayers or speak to me? It seemed as though my faults were being exposed; I was overwhelmed with guilt and shame. But I knew what Paul had taught the Romans in chapter 8:1 ”There is therefore now no condemnation (no guilt or shame) for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Now very aware of my unworthiness I put my trust in these words and remembered every verse I could recall about God’s unfailing love and the love He had for us even before we knew Him and certainly before being worthy.
I remained faithful to my quiet time alone, even though months went by with nothing but silence. It was a humbling time; I remember choosing to listen for His voice even if He never spoke to me again I was determined to remain faithful in my devotion to Him. Months turned into years but now I realized how precious my time with Him was even though there was only silence. The chaos of my thoughts had slowly transformed to clarity. I could have one thought at a time, one vivid picture in my mind that would make me bursts into laughter, or tears of joy. Sometimes my heart-felt like it could burst with love over a recollection, or a random vision of two huge arms wrapping around me. I could lose track of time just watching little lights push away dark blobs from behind my closed eyelids. It left me wishing for more time to be able to just be still and know that He is God, Psalm 46:10.
Last night I got my answer to how I could know the difference between my own thoughts and God’s voice. I was crying out to God, asking, even pleading to know His will and to hear His voice. I was trying with all my might to learn how to do everything just right so He would answer a very important prayer request I’d asked for. After I’d exhausted myself completely, I sat looking out over the beautiful, peaceful night sky and I felt the tension, anxiety, worry and panic drain from my body. I hadn’t realized how much weight was on my shoulders until it lifted. I sat there in a bliss of peace, smiling in awe at the stillness that had calmed me. Then I heard such a still, quiet thought; “this is my voice”. This peaceful, secure moment that I was wrapped in was His voice?! I knew this voice, it was familiar to me, I recognized it from all the times I’d sat in silence, content just to sit with my thoughts set on Him.
Colossians 3:15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful!
Philippians 4:4-7 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Isaiah 26:3 Perfect peace have those who set their minds on Him, because they trust in Him.
Romans 8:6 The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.
God speaks to us through His Word, in Spirit and Truth. He is continually drawing us with His loving kindness and guiding us with His Peace. We don’t even realize it because we are thinking with our finite mind.
God is Spirit, and we worship Him in Spirit and in Truth 🙂 John 4:23-25